Saturday, April 07, 2007

Sitting and Waiting

At the coffee shop: "That's a beautiful necklace!" Compliments the gal.

"Thank you!" I reply. "My husband gave it to me. Hopefully it draws attention away from my eye, " I laugh, then realize how that sounds so I keep going, "for our anniversary...he gave it to me for our anniversary... today is our anniversary... 17 years." (It really is).

She smiles at me and has moved onto the next customer but I can't just leave it like that... "The black eye... it's from my 4 year old." They both look at me. "He was swinging a jacket and the zipper got me just like that," I snap my fingers. I don't think they really cared... or believed me... but I couldn't stop talking. I hate it when that happens.

Anyway, I do have a passport now... it's in Houston... but that's all I know. I have no idea when I will have it but I do know that I will not be flying to Mexico on Monday with my family.

I spent many hours on the phone today and threw myself a roaring pity party... all for a trip that I didn't even want to go on until I couldn't. Geez - Talk about rebellious! Not to mention the fact that it's completely out of my hands at this point... yeah, control issues too.

I've been so upset that I haven't even knit in 2 days.

*Big Sigh* Oh well... since there's nothing I can do, I'm determined to let go and let God. As for my part... I might as well knit!


lynda said...

Oh my gosh - you have really had a tough few days! Even though none of these things are surprises to God- don't you wish sometimes he'd clue us into the plan?

Have a blessed Easter, my friend.

Tammy said...

In hindsight, the food poisoning, black eye, and early arrival of my husband's passport were all fairly decent clues that something was up.

I'm thinking big red warning flags would be nice, but I guess then we'd miss out on letting Him catch us when all else falls apart.

Donna Boucher said...

Oh Tammy!

I'll bet you have just been tied up in knots.

I am so sorry.

God bless you and may you find a little comfort and ease on this Easter morning.


Charity said...

Yikes! It all sounds grim, Tammy, but just think, in a few days you'll be knitting, sitting with your family and hanging out in Mexico! :0)

Auntie Pudentaine said...

I second what Charity said and will add that when you do finally make it, at least now you will WANT to be there....unless that rebellion kicks in again...gulp!

Sarah said...

LOL, I love how you had to explain it was the necklace from your husband and the black eye from your kid. Who knws what she was thinking!
Happy Anniversary!